Sunday, January 18, 2009

JOURNAL OF A VIRGIN


So, i decided to be a virgin till i got married when i turned thirteen. Growing up, i spent a part of my life with my five female cousins, and their mother, my aunt thought the sun shone out of their overgrown behinds. hence, every word she uttered was emphasized by how great her kids were, how well trained they were and how she was a hundred percent sure they were all still virgins. So, on that day, i thought to myself just how difficult could it be? it was mine ,wasn't it? And i could hold on to it for as long as i liked. i was determined to be a good girl just like my cousins were. Fast forward to five years later and i overheard my eldest cousin confiding in my mother how she'd lost her virginity in college. Subtract four years on, my second eldest cousin got pregnant out of wedlock. it was all very hush-hush but she had a son six months into the wedding. Then, two years later, another cousin had a baby out of wedlock. I was dumbfounded and disappointed{in no particular order}They'd unknowingly made me lose trust in the truthfulness of humanity.To think i'd actually looked up to these people as my role models! however, i learnt two lessons from my cousins' tale. i realised that talking about an idea does not necessarily mean you'd comply or holding anyone,[no matter how much you admire them] to such high standards of behaviour was inviting trouble. At thirteen, i'd only seen what i wanted to see and blindly followed the way of thoughts but at eighteen i became adult enough to reinforce my decision. it was different this time and i resolved never to be like my cousins but be me. Transform the idea conceived by my aunt into my own reality, my life. Today, i'm me;unique, different and still chaste. it's hard living in a world where everything screams sex, from pornographic billboards to movies that make you sweat. still i'm holding on if only by a thread. i'm scared of falling,it's the fear that makes me alert but with this journal, i'll vent. it'll be my form of catharsis. so i finally have a blog where i'll document all my adventures and life. So, today i'm welcoming me and everyone else to the surprisingly crazy life of a modern virgin.

11 comments:

  1. wow that's really nice sha...I am impressed! COnsidering that I am gunning for a lil celibacy myself [No I am not a virgin] it is gonna be ard the older you grow...but all the best girl! I'll be rooting for ya as well!

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  2. I am glad u are documenting this and I will be rooting for you. Please know that is possible to wait till marriage in this sex crazed society of urs.

    I am speaking from experience, because I am also a virgin in my late twenties...

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  3. Nefertiti; thanks for the support and for following my blog.you totally rock! you Chari; i know, right! it was so much easier when i was sixteen but i've gotten this far,a little more time wouldn't hurt. THANKS Allied; Really!!People like you give me hope. thanks a bunch!

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  4. I hereby join ur supporters club!!! Sometimes, pple we look up to mess up. its up to us to make our own standards. Go girl!!

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  5. I guess it just goes to show that everyone slips up once in a while..

    All the best remaining chaste, its not easy in this world of ours mehn!

    Read all 3 posts..i officially love ur blog! Welcome!

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  6. Thank you all for stopping by.

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  7. i wish u gudluck
    & my self as well lol
    Welcome!

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  8. wow proud of ya.... swthrt...
    its hard being a virgin.....society n peers palava
    stopped by to say *Hi happy new year*

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  9. Good luck gurl....personally i know its really hard especially being in college n sometimes its just so easy to be like forget it but Nigerians r stronger dan dat. lol

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  10. I can totally relate....I'm in similar shoes...this virginity thing is not easy to keep....reinforced my stance this year...its not going till I say I do...maybe we can support each other....

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